I'm 19 and a virgin. I've never been fingered by anyone other than myself and I've never had a gynecological examination.
I recently bought a rabbit vibrator. I knew that most rabbit vibrators are quite large for someone who isn't accustomed to anything larger than a finger in her vagina. I masturbate pretty often, and I've been masturbating for years. I have a bullet vibrator but I wanted something to penetrate with. I consulted a very informative sex blogger on what sort of rabbit vibrator would be good for an inexperienced virgin like me. She recommended the Mood Seductive. After doing research on this vibrator I purchased it. It arrived a little over a week ago. From her advice, I also bought lube when I bought the vibrator.
Long story short, after many trials and errors, I can't get the vibrator inside of me without me being afraid of tearing my hymen and/or feeling pain and discomfort. I have used tampons before, I have fingered myself before, and I have been able to fit two of my fingers inside of my vagina without any pain or discomfort (this toy is more narrow than two of my fingers).
I don't really understand why I can't seem to use the toy without having a really difficult time. It could be the curved tip that is just so hard to insert into the vagina. Or it could be all in my head. I'm starting to think it is really. This toy isn't large at all. Its size is nothing compared to an actual penis, so the struggle I've been having with it has really been bumming me out.
I feel afraid to tear my hymen. Sometimes when trying to insert this toy, I give up because I feel like I'm getting sore, and also discouraged.
What am I doing wrong? How can I enjoy my new toy without a very painful experience?