So I've posted here once before not that long ago, where I briefly mentioned the fact I think I've been suffering from BV for about 3 years now. The reason I left it go on untreated for so long is well 1) I was young and inexperienced when I first noticed symptoms and it didn't even cross my mind that I might have an infection. I kept thinking I maybe just wasn't washing myself down there well enough. Because my symptoms were never particularly unbearable or anything; it was only discharge and the fishy odour which was sometimes completely unnoticeable. I was able to put it out my mind. 2) The main reason I left it go untreated however, is because I'm terrified of the doctors. I know it probably sounds ridiculous, but just the whole being in a doctor's office makes me so horribly anxious. Within the past 10 years or so, I've never gone to the doctors for anything other than to go on the pill once I started becoming sexually active and to get a pap smear last year (we won't even go into how horrific it was to even get me to the doctors for that!). Luckily I've always been in pretty decent health, so going to the doctors never seemed to be a huge issue I had to face.
Once I noticed that the BV symptoms just weren't going away, however, I decided to Google it.. which was the first time I realised that my symptoms sounded like an infection. Because I was pretty much completely resistant on going to the doctors, I started trying home remedies to cure myself. I tried natural yogurt, probiotics, boric acid, and douching with hydrogen peroxide. All left me with immediate relief – but only for about a week at most, when the odour and discharge would always come back.
I'd had enough. I feel horribly disgusting because of this stupid infection and I can't shake the worries that I could be setting myself up for a horrible case of PID if I don't get this treated soon. Luckily I've been able to maintain a pretty good sexual relationship with my boyfriend – but there's only so many times I can try use a home remedy a few hours before sex to mask the symptoms.
SO.. it took about 2 hours before I could even bring myself to make the phone call – but I eventually did and I now have a doctors appointment on Thursday. You have no idea how much relief just making the appointment gave me.. but I'm also absolutely bricking it. It's not even one particular thing I'm scared of – it's just the entire process of being in a doctors office, having to talk to a doctor about these symptoms. I don't have any problems talking to other people on a daily basis, just purely doctors (or being in a hospital or a dentist or anything where people have to discuss my health…)
So I have a few questions and if you guys could just reassure me on anything, it would be hugely beneficial:
– Any advice on how I should start the conversation with the doctor? This terrifies me most, I think, because I'm worried I'll be sitting there stuttering away, not knowing how to find the confidence to just tell her.
– If it does turn out to be BV and I get put on antibiotics, is there anything I should do to try and ensure the infection doesn't just come right back? I know the antibiotics strip you of all bacteria, not just the bad. Should I take probiotics at the same time? Use natural yogurt down there to help at the same time?
– I'm also terrified because I've heard the side affects of the antibiotics for treating BV can be horrendous. If you've been on them, what was your experience? Is there anything I can do to make the antibiotics less unbearable?
Apologies for this essay of post – I'm just really, really scared about this entire process. It's been put off for such a long time, I just want it all to go as smoothly as possible from now on.
Thank you for any help you can give me!