Ok, people, I thought I’d never write one of these posts, since I usually think my methods of contraception should be safe enough, but … I’m kind of scared right now.
Well, I was on the pill until January. I’m in a long-distance relationship (two different continents, actually) right now, so I didn’t see my boyfriend from January to April. I’m with him right now, though, and since I was on the pill before, it’s the first time that we rely on condoms alone. And I think that makes me somewhat paranoid.
I should have gotten my period last Friday. I didn’t. However, Tuesday evening this week I got cramps (I always do on the first day of my period) and started bleeding. Tuesday until Wednesday evening I had a pretty normal flow, but yesterday it stopped almost entirely, and now there’s just some (very little) brownish discharge.
The weird thing is that the one and a half days I was bleeding, it was only blood – fresh, red blood, without any clots. And now I’m scared that this might be implantation bleeding. I took a pregnancy test yesterday and it was negative, but then I guess if implantation was only Tuesday, the test wouldn’t be positive yet.
I know it’s highly unlikely – I mean, I guess we would have noticed if a condom had slipped or anything. My boyfriend kept thrusting for a few seconds once after ejaculating, but there didn’t seem to be any semen leaking from the condom. So I know I’m probably not pregnant. But I just don’t understand why my period – if it’s a period – is so weird this time. Is it possible that I didn’t ovulate, so the uterine lining doesn’t shed, but I’m still bleeding? Could it be that my cycle is still wonky almost four months after getting off the pill (I did have two “normal” periods since then, though)?
I think I’d be less worried if I had just skipped a period – but this weird bleeding scares me.
To make matters worse, I really don’t think I’d want to have a child now, but abortion is illegal here and in all the neighbouring countries (in some of them even if the woman’s life is in danger), so I’d have to get back home earlier (besides the fact that I wouldn’t exactly look forward to the abortion itself either, but I think right now having a baby would be even worse).
I guess I just need some reassurance that this weird period – just blood, no clots – does not have to be implantation bleeding, just to get me through the next few days before I can take another test.
Thanks so much in advance!
Edited to fix typo.