Okay I feel a little awkward posting, but I have tried going back and reading through resources and I can’t find the information I need.
I am a virgin but I don’t believe my hymen is intact. Recently I have been considering, trying to get a finger inside my vagina, possibly leading to getting a bullet vibe in there.
What I want to know is would this lead to my vagina looking different on the outside? At the moment I can’t actually see a hole or a space there and this question is mainly down to a comment a friend made about “her hole looking a whole lot bigger on the outside” since she had started having sex. I’m wondering whether this is true?
I am from a culture where “virginity” before marriage is a requirement (Don’t judge, the guy has the same values to live up to!) so I’m also wondering whether penetration with fingers and bullet vibes will make my vagina large over time and hence my sexual response that first time with a man, be “non-virgin-like”?
The final question I have is I can’t seem to slide my finger in to my vagina anyway. I have been very wet and turned on when I have tried so I am prepared, but I can’t seem to slide a finger in. Should I be using some pressure? Would having a mirror make it easier or should I be more relaxed and lying down not focussed on things like mirrors. Anyway any help on the questions would be appreciated. Thanks in advance.